Surrender

Here s another slice of Fr. Terry mind. This time he talks about his going to the monastery every summer':

I came to the monastery again for my thirteenth summer in the Colorado high country. It seems that I have brought with me the theme of "surrender." Whatever plans I have to do this or that, I hope to not make my agenda the center of my summer. I have some likes and preferences, but I know from past monastery experience, that if my agenda becomes central, I will make no spiritual progress. Stuff will happen this summer, for which I did not plan. This stuff will be God at work to test my resolve to surrender to Spiritual Power, and not my need to control, manage fear, or be self-centered. Already there have been some surprises and some past dysfunctional thinking on my part. I keep trying to let it go. People ask me what will I be "doing" up here. What will my work be. It will be surrender. This is plenty enough work for someone like me. Prayers, if you are a praying person. Then again, some people think I am just on a vacation. Vacation is where I successfully get my way. Monasteries are no vacations.