The Less You Know
Sometimes, the less I know about a situation, the more likely I will choose it. For instance, I chose to come to the monastery yesterday to have some monastery time, help out, be with the brothers, and so on. A real spiritual high so I thought. But I did not know about a few things. For one, my bathroom next to my room had the water shut off due to a leaking pipe. Two fights down stairs and a long corridor is the next bathroom. In my room, my chair is missing as is my blanket that was on the chair, and a table was gone. The monk who will sit next to me in choir is at death's door with congestion. Knowing me, I would simply have bailed on coming up here and decided to find God in a more convenient fashion. But I am meant to be here, so it is right that I not know things that would have kept me away. This will be a good in spiritual experience for me if I stay open, practice acceptance and life on life's terms. Think about your partner. You say, "If I had known what I know now, I would never have married this person." But it might be the right person for you with all their flaws as you judge them. The career you took, the home in which you live required decisions based upon some ignorance or else you would choose nothing. I will be in great shape after this experience at the monastery because every time I want to go to the bathroom I will have two flights from my room and we are at 8,000 feet altitude. I'll practice non-whining. Fat chance.